I've recently registered for college classes, and it's got me thinking; is this how I am starting my future?
The best I can hope for in this life is a cut rate job, a husband who might not love me and (I shudder to think) a child or two. But is that what I want? I'm going to try and get my associates degree in something, but then...
It sounds stupid and cliche, but I want adventure and romance, but not love and commitment. am I really just afraid of the future?
Sometimes, all I want is to get married and get on with, what I hope, will be the best I can hope for.
But then other times, I want to run off to Italy and eat salami and have a crazy fling with a guy named Sergio, who works in a cafe and smokes on his breaks, (even though smoke makes me gag.)
I want a future, but not a future that has been laid out before me.
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